i am in your position bro. it’s much worse now given current world predicaments.

start writing. start meditating. just work on yourself. realize that it’s time to equal out that balance of selflessness that we share when we can’t stand ourselves so much that we’d do anything just to have company that would remotely give you warmth and appreciation even if they treat you like s***, and selfishness. Give yourself the love others didn’t give back.

Go to sleep G. Wake up and go for walk. This too shall pass

no number of women worth your peace of mind fif

@FIFTY950 remember how in shambles i was in msct 1.5-2.5 months ago about s*** like my friend's sister and my ex

Things get better you just gotta put in the effort

the faded cuts on my wrist from high school say otherwise my g.

It does get better 'nahmean?

it’s not even oneitis ik i pull b****es and she isn’t even a dime.

but i love every little thing about her and it simply does not matter. my life lacks drive, everything is gray minus the music.

ive tried to work on myself

i changed my looks. ive been writing. ive been working on my film

none of that compares to feeling of having someone that loves you. someone who smiles when they see you or cry when you get hurt

if i killed myself right now everyone would forget about me in months

i was not put here to be loved or happy. iwas put here to suffer. ive tried crying, being angry, yelling but none of it works. i have nothing left

no one would forget you bro, especially us

you know how f***ing disheartening it is to see all your niggas glowup around you while you stay stagnated in the same spot

i turn 20 in less than a week and what the f*** do i have to show for it

im lying in bed crying posting suicidal rants on a music forum. who the f*** wouldcare about someone so pathetic and weak

im done. i have nothing left to give. im sorry. i tried my best

bro i broke down in my gym locker room 2 weeks ago.

a man came to me and asked me what my name was. he's smiling.

he asked me how old i was, i'm 21. he told me he's 29, he lost his job, and his wife is pregnant.

he told me that we all go through it, regardless.

this is something meant for you to learn from, not hurt from.

20 is super young my g.

man u still here?

Nah f*** that I'd miss you and seeing a RIP Fifty950 thread on here would legit f*** me up. And thats just on here. I know you got people irl that'll be wrecked if you ended it all.
You young bruh you got so many f***in years ahead of you and things you could do. I know you into film, you could make a f***in masterpiece bruh. I know you got a lot of s*** you wanna do in life man dont surrender your chance to be great cus you feel unloved or unwanted fam. Thats not the case at all. You MSCT fam and irl I know theres people out there who'd be heartbroken if they knew you were feeling like this.

Yo someone please tell me they got a way to contact my guy this s*** is making me nervous

I promise I understand how you feeling right now because I be thinking the same s*** about myself everyday. I turned 21 back in September and I can guarantee that all of my friends are way more successful than me, it's not even funny how far behind I am compared to other niggas my age. At the end of the day though bro I just try to keep it pushing. Just try to make it through every single day and hopefully the next one is better is what I tell myself

I REALLY, REALLY hope you still with us bro

im straight

We love you bro. There's ALOT of people that care about u here.

I can only see my life getting worse, need this s*** to end

i love sleeping i want to sleep and dream forever :+)

nah but fr

everything hurts