is everything just an escape from everything?

I just want to die man, I keep trying to push through but it's meaningless, what's the point of trying when s*** is only going to get worse, sometimes I wonder if Im ment to die.

aging sucks

Watching people grieve you when you’re still alive is terrible, everyone in my life is gone and I’m pretty much unloveable at this point. I’m too far gone every day I just constantly distract myself because if I’m alone I think of how I’m going to kill myself. I’m sick and tired of this life

how all of you dealing with the covid virus ?

these niggas are fake as s*** but im attached out of time and familiarity.

Tht thing yr brain does where it just makes u remember how pathetic u are by making u see things in a kind of “meta” way

Im making progress w a girl and my head constantly just reminds me tht my life is just limited to these serotonin shots i get from people, living life thru others

Makes me feel even worse tht smth so cheap would “get me up” and i hv no real inner happiness ina first place yk

im not 20 yet but i relate strongly and thought i would share

this post is so important because I’m going through exactly this

So many things out of my control has taken a toll on my mental all throughout my developmental years and only now at 21 am I able to start working out through so much damage.
Growing up with anxiety disorder, major depression, absentee borderline abusive parenting, and coming from a disadvantaged household has embedded so many unhealthy toxic behaviours/traits that makes it extremely difficult to function as an adult

its so comforting to know I’m not alone going through this, when that’s exactly how it feels

great timing and even greater post, thanks for sharing

you realize you really have a trash ass friend who others in your circle try to ignore his psychopathic traits where he f***ing uses the s*** out of us all instead of getting his life together and you wonder what you have done to him to deserve it, which is nothing, then you get better by keeping yourself on top of it and ignoring his bullshit.

don’t even be rememberin what my dreams be about but they for damn sure better than when i wake jon

I may sometimes seem like I've got my s*** together (and in some ways now I do...) but I know exactly what you mean
My parents haven't been together romantically since I was 5 but due to financial situations we all lived together til I was 20, living in such a toxic environment f***ed me up in some ways that I've recuperated and others that I still haven't touched the surface of fixing, and I'm still not slightly prepared mentally to get over
It's life sadly

why do i care so much about people that could give less of a f*** about me

f*** this man

do as cudi says and keep movin forward

I stay positive

I cant control my thoughts

and most of the time I cant tell what's ok to say and whats not

like my mind either goes blank and I say the most stupid s*** ever or I avoid saying stuff I should say

its like my brain is beyond deep-fried at this point

I'm feeling a lot right now but I don't how to say it

I just want the best for me, but I am at the time unsure of how to achieve that with my current circumstances.

change change change change change change change change change change change change change change change change change change change change change change change change change change change change change change change change change change change change

my heart is still aching although the emotions of love are not present anymore.