Kodak Spice

2mo

i bought a axolotl in maine

CutiePieHole

2mo

WTF

Br00ses

2mo

There's nothing wrong with being motivated in a different way from the rest of people. That's healthy and good. If you're motivated by just experiences and joy that's great do that!

But

If that's truly the case then there's no reason to attack the values other people have. That won't get you any closer to what you say you're looking for. You're putting yourself in a little box for no reason separated from the rest of the world.

Kodak Spice

2mo

i also think my layers of insecurity stemming from "a bih never liked me back" and heteronormative movies like American pie making it seem like f***ing is the all mighty most important center of the universe task along w the obvious goonerbrainrot contributes as well

but yes my contrarianism does make me relate less to others and make me often discredit and disrespect in an disestablishmentarian manner

i have no regard or care for most things really. i just also have a deep hatred and distrust of humans that ive been softening on too

idk i think im just fearful of the unknown and my past traumas of ppl always treating me like im ugly and irredeemable garbage gives me a inferiority complex that eats away at me slowly

Tuneout

2mo

i think my appetite and sleep are finally coming back after getting off my prescription

im debating when i get it refilled in a couple weeks whether to go back on and eventually go through all this again or just not because s*** sucks

Br00ses

2mo

I think you realize you think differently and it drives you to discredit the people around you because that scares you a bit. You describe your thoughts in a very bold way like you are very confident in how you feel about the world, but then you actually think in a way that shows that the fact that you think so differently from others might scare you or make you uncomfortable. You feel the need outwardly question them to distract you from the fact that you are questioning yourself

Stankie

2mo

Whats ur prescription

Kodak Spice

2mo

ok im questioning myself but im always questioning myself thats why one of my motifs was i strive for ignorance cuz when will i ever have all the answers i want its an endless pursuit for a fruitless task. we all die anyway whats the point of knowing everything. plus perspective is just one brain's take on something. its awful pompous and npd of myself to think my perspective is THE perspective on every topic, especially when i also claim to be socially retarded

Br00ses

2mo

You're like most of the way there I think

You realize that's a pointless task

So just don't worry about it

You say you realize it's an unhealthy way to think and then it seems like you still base your thoughts around it. That's bad. You need to completely let it go.

Tuneout

2mo

pregabalin (brand name lyrica)

its like gabapentin. its usually given for seizures disorders but i was perscribed it for anxiety and bad restless leg syndrome.

ive only been on it for 6 months!
i find it flattens my emotions when im on it, but it does help. idk if the trade off is worth it or not

Stankie

2mo

I’ve always thought they should attach some sort of kinetic energy harvester to the legs of people with restless leg syndrome and we could power the world for free

CutiePieHole

2mo

Are people even playing that yoshi game

Kodak Spice

2mo

i dont go to the gym i walk

Tuneout

2mo

i heard it takes like 4 hours to beat and you cant die. so i think its more for kids