Every day is the same

Told this girl I was doing bad And I’d text her when I’m ok and she texts me first and is shocked I’m a complete a****** and piece of shjt

I'm hurting real bad since my father passed from covid. s***s surreal and I haven't been the same lately. Everyday is harder, i told my mom I want to get a prescription for antidepressants.

ffs

Thanks man.. I hope something good happens to us this year. I need that s*** so bad

Thanks Clarice

I don't exercise much, Ive only been doing pushups and bench presses in my garage. I'm a skinny c***, so I know I gotta put on weight.
It's true with managing internet time and reading, I've got like 30 or 40 books on my desk that I haven't read
It's my new hobby now, buying books and more books. but it's hard to concentrate since this s*** I'm dealing with has boiled over.

Thanks for the offer Clarice, you got a link for the discord? Because thatll be good for me when I need to vent and to listen to other people also

Take care

How are you holding up now?

Had no idea you were Brazilianm. Crazy to think so many of us are from all over the world. I looked up Ubatuba beach and it's really nice.. Being with nature is comforting for me, I hoped it made you feel better.

I guess she just needs time to heal, maybe not 100%, because I don't think us people will ever be 100% after dealing with a family member passing away. You just need a strong support system which I'm sure you're providing her with.

Take care

You okay?

i got close to that many books but never had the drive to read, but this year it's going to be different.

discord.gg/U3Wb2Dqf

i made a few weeks back @op have been discussing organising weekly sessions on there in February.

it's just me in the discord atm, but anyone in here is welcome to join to discuss their mental and psycholgical status if they wish.

even with a discord i'm still going to be in here, so don't think i'll be abandoning anyone in here.

it's going to be a joint venture.

What books have you got?

Fiction, Non-Fiction, Self-Help, Auto-Bios.

i tell you what i'll post my stack later on here because i need to organize them.

I will add to OP when I get home today. Thanks for all you do bro

Thanks for the kind words man.

I’m not Brazilian tho my girlfriend is. I’m American. I moved here so she could spend time with her sister in her final years

Tuba was definitely a beautiful place, unfortunately it’s pretty poor in most places and it shows in the city

I keep only getting like 4 hours of sleep at night and waking up with a heightened heart rate

just got antidepressants but i don’t feel like taking them

Sometimes I just wanna disappear....

Shiii if life isn’t looking up by end of 2022 I’m killing myself

feeling very low tonight

i just hope it all works out

i cant handle it not going well

i just need you to stay

please

i wont beg you

because in the end i love you enough to let you go for you to decide whats best for you

im willing to suffer for that cause i dont love myself like that

i cant stand the thought of losing you and it's making me suffocate inside but i wont let it stop you from leaving if that's what you really need

and to think that i promised myself never again but the fact that this is something i may have to deal with, yet again

think it’s time to go to the doc I been in a bad state since November and the days are just getting worse