Caught myself mentally writing a suicide not which is not a good sign

I’m honestly not sure what to do

i find myself doing that too sometimes. stay strong

but on the real i feel useless. i don’t have a car and me and my gf split and i feel like people in my life find me too goofy to pursue anything real with

rather go one day without it than accidentally taking a double dose and being sleepy the whole day

Not doing well at all.. Same s*** just really really lonely. Had a date last week which went well and s***, I know I shouldn't get my hopes up after 1 date, but I was just hoping something might happen.. But nope.

S*** feeling.

I haven't written a suicide note, but I wrote all the stuff I'm not happy with, I broke down writing that and ended up deleting it off my pc..

Hard to even think about

We’re gonna get through it I believe ❤️

We hope for better days and they’re going to come eventually

Wrote about 3 of them. Recently thought about writing a long one and each pertaining to people in my life that I care for. But the other side of me doesn’t want to because a part of me feels mad about it all

Man :(

I used to think winter time was the loneliest but these days the summers seem even worse

discord is now open

(I hope y'all don't mind me sharing this in here on the daily)

discord.gg/GZNarFgW

Just had a blowup with my brother and Im legit considering just offing this mf. I know I need to leave here, killing him and just dealing with the consequences don't even seem bad right now.

All I need to do is steal a knife and wait for that right moment. Thats if I dont wanna use a gun

This is all i feel now. This used to be my favorite time of year. The despair is so vivid around this time now

I DONT THINK THEY UNDERSTAND HOW SERIOUS I AM WHEN I SAY I WILL F***ING MURDER YOUUUUUUUUU

I haven't smoked or done any d**** in the past two weeks either. This is all sober thoughts. I need a medical card

My brother please calm down for a second im not aware of your situation but it isnt worth going to jail for that im sure of

Everybody itt be miserable af sometimes but we all share the fact that we wanna get out of this as better people that are in better situations

Love you bro, dont do anything stupid

I need to be sedated right now so damn bad. The funniest thing is Im just sitting here and I look calm but Im thinking of doing the worst things

Idk if you into that stuff but meditation works for me

But fr bruh we love you nobody wants to see you go to f***ing jail or some s***, keep strong brother. Please

I hear you, I just need to leave. I cant be somewhere that brings this outta me

The environment you're in you should definitely leave cause that will help

But I think you should also look internally to and see where that even comes from man. It's a dangerous path to start doing down in the future.

Wishing the best for you brobro

You right, the fact that my mind is even going there has been f***ing with me since I calmed down. Im just tired man

Out of curiosity do you take yours with food?

Bro why in the f*** is every post I see on my explore page about happy moments in relationships. stop shoving this s*** down my throat IM F***ING LONELY