Give me 10 minutes to myself and I’ll be spiralling thinking about everything that’s wrong with me and hating myself and society.

The only time i feel at peace is when im dumb high

hows everyone? since this covid thing man iv been home out of work for a year, gyms closed sometimes when i wake up in the morning i feel like my mood is down because there is nothing to look forward to, i tell you if it was not for working out an being on a routine things would be bad also for music to it helps a lot i hope everyone does well and be strong

The last 2 girls I dated that I actually liked both replaced me with the quickness and got serious with other people. I haven’t been the same since

Im still working thankfully but I feel you about not having anything to look forward to. The only thing I’m excited to do is get f***ed up.

how ? it depends where you live i live in canada and pretty much we have been in lockdown for like 5 months on an off also i work in hospitality so that's why my work has been f***ed over by all this to

Down bad. Got fired when covid popped off,me and my ex broke up during the beginning of this, it needed to happen but I kinda spiraled after that. My alcohol, weed and d*** usage are all at an all time high. I never been this depressed and anxious my anxiety is thru the roof sometimes I don't even sleep some days. This s*** hasnt been kind to me. I just took it a as an off year I'll bounce back as soon as things start normalizing. My friend gave me a Nintendo switch tho and that new monster hunter is out so things aren't all that bad I guess

Currently trying to smoke myself to sleep. the s*** use to work once upon a time

i hope you overcome your demons and take care of yourself

I am dying

This

Confidence after a haircut 📈
Confidence 3 weeks later 📉

Just had my first therapy session and not bad.

I'm gonna request another therapist. Wasn't connecting and something she said didn't sit well with me

I have been getting progressively worse for 11 years. This is incredible and theres no light in sight

Did you manage to find work?

I do part time weed work full time d*** dealer now

Damn...I feel that too fam, even on meds s*** feels hard to deal with. S*** sucks when your family is the only reason you are keeping on, but I know one day things will get better.

Seeing everyone around me capable of having relationships while I just want ro cease existing

I wish it was that easy.. But i don't want to be alone anymore. I can't stand it.. The quiet days when I'm at home, the quiet nights also.

Im currently living with my sister and her boyfriend, and they're going away for a week.. So it's gonna be just me and my thoughts for that entire time. I'm on holidays at the moment, so as usual, I got nothing to do. I do have uni assignments, but I couldn't give a f*** about those assignments right now..

Im so envious of peoples relationships and friendships.. It hurts when I see or hear people doing anything interesting..

Good to see you post here..

I hope your business adventure works out well.

Hope you're doing well

It really is that easy bro like get out of bed plant your feet on the ground step outside look around pick a direction and go. You don't move like this so you're not used to it just like anything with a lil practice you'll be able to entertain and fulfill yourself. Bro you were born alone and your gonna die alone learn to enjoy your own company. People think they need someone to hold there hand to watch a new movie or go to a theme park that s*** is insane to me if I waited around for that I would never do anything I want too. The holidays are always depressing to me especially Christmas I hate it. I get what you're saying but you really shouldn't be envious of others like that that old dude with a bunch a kids and a piece of s*** wife he's dealt with his whole life is envious of people like you probably single young people who can do whatever the f*** they want whenever they want. Don't compare yourself to people that s*** will make you miserable we all move at our own pace you are what I like to call a late bloomer Im one myself actually i still have a s*** ton of things to learn I should've learned years ago but I delayed my growth like you're doing bro.

last Month was the lowest I've been since last March.

Almost accepted death as my fate.
I still do just not right now.

I'm feeling better right now but I don't know how long it will last. This cycle will be the end of me, its mentally exhausting. Its like trying to move a f***ing boulder with your mind everyday.