just tired

i hate eating

im so f***ing stressed all the time these days jesus christ

im exhausted

Really not liking myself or being here at all rn

...

Farewell

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you good???

Hello?

dealing with ptsd from childhood, stress from school, depression i've been dealing with since middle school and i found out someone in my circle is a rapist... why god why

yo i need help man

i just learned about derealisation and think i have it. Or maybe not? idek sometimes when im at work (i have some good friends there) it doesnt feel real. Like right now im at home and the fact that i was working with these people today and had fun doesn’t feel real. The fact that i can hit them up rn feels weird as if they don’t exist, even tho i can.

Im not even high or anything like that ive been feeling like this often, but thought it was normal.

here while i was going through similar experience what I found helped the most was going through my childhood memories or passions things to connect me back to my reality.

so things like hobbies sports i played video games music comics books pretty much anything i mightve spent my spare time doing.

this s*** is a weird feeling tho. All i have done for the last year is going to work. Bow the country is opening up so i plan on meeting up with old friends and play basketball and s***

I just wanna smoke myself out of reality

i dont ask for much

my closest friend died on monday I'm having a hard time accepting it f*** man

The temptation of going back to numbing and suppressing is stronger than ever

I’m tired and I never deserved any of this