A new day

I think the Wellbutrin kicked in and I started grinding some homework

Can’t tell if it’s just placebo or not

Gives me crazy headaches tho

I swear 2 god my mental health gets 100x worse after i eat like s***. Is there a connection? Im fr about to change my life and diet for good if so

Sick of this s*** man

Yes ur body needs nutrients to feel good generally and there's not that many in foods that you know are s*** for you

make it stop

I send a heart you send a heart back
but when I gave my real heart, you halved that

i genuinely don't think i'll ever be able to get over her

i know everyone says that but idk something about this relationship felt very different from anything else i've ever experienced

i feel as though no matter what i'm gonna continue comparing my future relationships to her and they will simply never stack up, the circumstances and time in which we met will make sure of it

it had the immature yet exciting aspects of a young love mixed with the living situation of a long term love

as unhealthy as it is we spent 24/7 with eachother but no time spent together felt draining, it was constantly a feeling of excitement unlike anything else i've felt

i put so much into this person, i left behind so much of the other aspects of my life just so i could be with them constantly and now it feels as though i'm left with nothing but a gaping hole in my heart.

the worst part is knowing i could've changed this outcome had i just done one thing differently.

i rlly thought i had finally found the person i'd spend the rest of my life with

they told me last thursday, literally less than a week ago that i'm the best thing that's ever happened to them, they love me more than i'll ever know and now they've cut contact with me

they sounded so genuine when they said that, maybe i'm an idiot for sitting here and hoping they'll come back but just something about the way they said that makes me have a little hope

I remember i used to feel the same way each time my relationships ended, shared trauma is a pretty strong bond. But everything fades with time, and you'll start to feel a bit more whole again as months go by. Give yourself the time and space to heal

ive been there many times and it still hurts when it happens again

wasting my life away

such a loser

it was placebo

Just remember that that feeling always passes

I ain't nothing but tired. Man, I'm just tired and bored with myself.

I'm locked in a never-ending downward spiral of self-destruction

you're not an idiot for hoping. they'll come back, i really do wish that for you as well

Suicide pact what y'all thinking?

I hate myself so much rn

Bet