posting here instead of as a thread because i don't want it to devolve into some ironic bs. i'm getting real tired of dating and s***. i was in a 5 yr on/off relationship w my ex that was riddled w issues and w that falling apart more definitvely i'm beyond tired of the psychosexual game of dating.
i don't have any issues meeting people or getting dates. the issue is i stg i'm just incompatible with people's intentions and what people want from relationships. i'm not some prude and i'm not like religious, but if one more person on a dating app tells me they just wanna be fwb and have no intentions of actual relationships im gonna go batshit insane. this has happened to be now w 4 women in a row in a very short period of time.
everyone who shows interest in me is either likely legitimately mentally ill or they just want sex. i would literally rather have people tell me they just aren't interested in me or be turning me down instead of this. like i'd rather no one show interest in me at all vs this. this psychosexual bullshit that underlines everything is driving me legitimately insane. no i don't want to hook up. i don't want to play some stupid game of hanging out as a pretense so a purely sexual relationship seems less weird.
this isn't some virtuous preachy thing either. i get a lot of people just want sex. that's fine, you do you, but ive been there done that too and its not what im looking for nor do i think its healthy personally for what i want from a relationship. im so f***ing tired man

doing bad

got even wilder stories but they don't paint a pretty picture.

benzo are a hard, hard d*** fr it's like opening pandora's box

SIKE

what's up b?

I miss her

Life sucks

just hay fever

Remember it ok to show emotion dont bottle that s*** up !! Crying good fir the soul

i dont even want to be happy i just want to be ok

Anyone on Wellbutrin? Does it help you focus and retain info?

I talked to my doctor about me not being able to focus and retain any information. That my grades are dropping. I can’t remember what I’m learning. Stuff like that. He told me to get on Wellbutrin 150 mg XL. I’m already on Zoloft.

I’m a dud

What if i forget, i don’t wanna forget

real

fed up with myself

I can't handle stress without being aggressive and violent about it ffs

fr fr crying is therapeutic

So much pain in my heart

Broke down at work yesterday... haven't stopped crying yet. Nobody should live feeling like this

i'm so sorry b 😞 is there anything we can do?

always hear to listen