That sounds nice, maybe there’s one in Morocco

The bottle is my spaceship

Petite sirah gets me

im going to die soon

Sobriety is overrated man.

Dont wish days like this on nobody.

Bro seasonal depression is a B****

I know we gotta keep the 4 seasons cause global warming and s*** but BRUH I LEGIT HATE THE WINTER DOG.

It’s so depressing.

I need anxiety meds

I am on the verge of doing something horrible

been dealing with heartbreak, lack of sleep, and overworked at a job that you actually have to deal with people 😞 legit could cry sometimes

Last week I had my last appointment with my psychologist.

I'm not there yet, but I know what to do to get better, nevertheless its tough.

Nah, please don't.

They are absolutely horrible, will make you addicted to them within weeks and before you know you only function when you take them.

Try to get through it yourself. It'll take time, but eventually it'll get better.

Why was it your last appointment?

Suicide always sitting in the back of my head

Not the 1am thoughts

Been going there for around 1.5 years, and before that twice for long periods.

Everything I wanted to talk about I've talked about.
I mainly got anxiety problems(anxiety disorder) and I know what to do to control it, it was absolutely horrible and uncontrollable since last December until May. Also got diagnosed with Dysthymia, light version if that even exists.

Me and my psychologist came to the conclusion that there is no point in more appointments there.
I wouldn't mind still going but the waiting lists are huge, I guess that also played a role

do you guys have any mantras to repeat to yourself?

Feels like I am in a suspended state of panic because of my lifestyle.

Instead of being taken by surprise by an event that requires sudden action, that feeling like when you sleep in class and shoot awake, I just become hyper vigilant and detached from what goes on around me all the time. Like im a force of nature whos purpose is to come when im needed, like a computer. I make myself anxious all the time so I dont have to experience that rush of adrenaline.

Man I was crying in public like a lil b**** yesterday

Try to use it advantageously rather than destructively?

I don't think I'm anxious all the time but my instant reaction is horrible but that's not necessarily a bad thing, b/c I realized when everyone else is panicking I'm just super calm so I offer different perspective.

I get panicked about really dumb interpersonal things rather than actually real world empirical things.

i really like this video