Dec 23, 2019·1 reply
RIZGODTook shrooms last night and I just felt weird. It felt like something was missing but I didn't know what and I just felt sad, like how can I not enjoy shrooms anymore.
I took about 2g in capsules and I had 5g + ecstasy last month, but both paled in comparison to my previous trips. I kinda feel like I'm wasting the d*** by just staying in my room, making playlists of the same music and laying in bed looking at the stars.
I try not to focus too much on myself because I'm scared of what it'll make me realize but on every trip I realize that I need to be more social and it seems so simple but I never actually apply it in my life after.
I think I need to get more life experience before I trip again, hopefully I can do it in another setting too. I planned to trip in about 3 weeks but after last night, I don't think I'll enjoy it. I'll wait till March-April at the earliest
Oh no you must focus on yourself during these trips man
I even keep a trip diary
I deal with metal health issue and the main thing I learned from using psychs is that they don't get rid of your problems but they get magnified!
I can use that to see what other routes I can take now and it has helped me out tremendously
If you haven't read yet plz read doors of perception by aldous huxley
You won't regret it
- Dec 23, 2019·1 reply
SuperMarioyup, jan is the month, but I'm afraid my doc will give me some s***ty anti-psychotic like olanzapine or give me more lyricas to balance the benzos out
You go to the doctor and get your help f*** all the stigma
Lyrica is not going to balance anything you need to taper properly
Lyrica works some of the same receptors as X**** but def nothing to taper with or used to help balance
It may help with a withdraw A LITTLE and that's it.
Even then
- Dec 23, 2019·1 replyThisIsMVP
You go to the doctor and get your help f*** all the stigma
Lyrica is not going to balance anything you need to taper properly
Lyrica works some of the same receptors as X**** but def nothing to taper with or used to help balance
It may help with a withdraw A LITTLE and that's it.
Even then
s*** man, sounds tough.
and my doc is a f***ing leech that'll give me a script for anything for the right price.
I doubt he's going to help me at all
- Dec 23, 2019·1 replySuperMario
s*** man, sounds tough.
and my doc is a f***ing leech that'll give me a script for anything for the right price.
I doubt he's going to help me at all
How's your insurance?
I ask because that typically signifies the help you will get here in this unfortunate country of ours.
I'm under care of a therapist (prescribes me my x**** and lyrica)
And also a Psychiatrist both who have been helping me tremendously
Was upfront with em both about my past use of xans self medicating but since I actually understood the dangers he went ahead and gave me the script but we have a plan to get me off in the next year
What's sad is i'll actually miss em lol but that's just not a d*** you need to be on for the rest of your life. Maybe of and on, maybe.
- Dec 23, 2019·1 replyThisIsMVP
How's your insurance?
I ask because that typically signifies the help you will get here in this unfortunate country of ours.
I'm under care of a therapist (prescribes me my x**** and lyrica)
And also a Psychiatrist both who have been helping me tremendously
Was upfront with em both about my past use of xans self medicating but since I actually understood the dangers he went ahead and gave me the script but we have a plan to get me off in the next year
What's sad is i'll actually miss em lol but that's just not a d*** you need to be on for the rest of your life. Maybe of and on, maybe.
The best in my country, no cap.
I have like 2 more psychiatrists that know my case and could help me but that would only slow me down
I never liked therapy...I'm not that good with being emotional and sharing ..and as far as the meds go I was forced to take 'em ever since I was put in a psych ward after having a psychotic episode.
I hope you'll get to see the day where you wont need that s***...
- Dec 23, 2019·1 replySuperMario
The best in my country, no cap.
I have like 2 more psychiatrists that know my case and could help me but that would only slow me down
I never liked therapy...I'm not that good with being emotional and sharing ..and as far as the meds go I was forced to take 'em ever since I was put in a psych ward after having a psychotic episode.
I hope you'll get to see the day where you wont need that s***...
Thank you brother
I can only suggest to try and be open to your doctors despite you being the non sharing type
If it helps just tell them clear cut what you want to see if you can avoid the systematic questions and s***
I lucked up with my doctors these mfs actually care (or do a good job of pretending lol)
Otherwise I wish you the best on your journey man, I know you'll get better time heals all
- Dec 23, 2019ThisIsMVP
Thank you brother
I can only suggest to try and be open to your doctors despite you being the non sharing type
If it helps just tell them clear cut what you want to see if you can avoid the systematic questions and s***
I lucked up with my doctors these mfs actually care (or do a good job of pretending lol)
Otherwise I wish you the best on your journey man, I know you'll get better time heals all
Thanks man, means a lot. I'll do my best
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Dec 23, 2019·1 replyproperIf anyone needs 🍄 in the USA
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- Dec 23, 2019ThisIsMVP
Oh no you must focus on yourself during these trips man
I even keep a trip diary
I deal with metal health issue and the main thing I learned from using psychs is that they don't get rid of your problems but they get magnified!
I can use that to see what other routes I can take now and it has helped me out tremendously
If you haven't read yet plz read doors of perception by aldous huxley
You won't regret it
Thanks, I've been meaning to read more so I'll definitely check that book out
I'm kinda afraid of my issues being magnified, its why I try to move my thoughts away when I focus on myself. What you say about other routes makes sense since shrooms have been showed to open neurological pathways and make new connections 
- proper 🔩Dec 23, 2019·1 replyXxcashcartixXCXOVO
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prolly won’t be free till sat tho - Dec 23, 2019·1 replyproper
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- proper 🔩Dec 23, 2019·1 replyXxcashcartixXCXOVO
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Yeah I got discord. proper#6051
- Dec 23, 2019proper
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Dec 23, 2019·1 reply
KURCOBANEall the questions you ask makes it seem like youre not on benzos yet. please be careful benzo addiction is no joke
Appreciate your concern, last few months been really rough can't lie abused Xans, Etizolam & Valium v badly, managed to cut it out about a week ago, last week was f***ing rough but a lot better now defo ain't a joke
Reason i'm asking is just because idk it's nice to have re-assurance other ppl goin through it
- Dec 23, 2019·1 replyRIP_Actavis
Appreciate your concern, last few months been really rough can't lie abused Xans, Etizolam & Valium v badly, managed to cut it out about a week ago, last week was f***ing rough but a lot better now defo ain't a joke
Reason i'm asking is just because idk it's nice to have re-assurance other ppl goin through it
I think I confused you for the guy asking if someone takes lorazepam for sleep lol
Most of the regulars itt are regular benzo users
I was just trying to warn the guy to not get into benzo addiction just to help him sleep when there are better/ less dangerous ways to fall asleep lol - Dec 23, 2019KURCOBANE
I think I confused you for the guy asking if someone takes lorazepam for sleep lol
Most of the regulars itt are regular benzo users
I was just trying to warn the guy to not get into benzo addiction just to help him sleep when there are better/ less dangerous ways to fall asleep lolOh fairs makes sense lmao, either way, happy I've been able to initiate a break from them, I know in myself it won't last forever but hey we move
Dec 23, 2019
Dec 23, 2019·editedi passed out sometime at mid day, and just woke up thinking it was tomorrow morning.
mind is f***ed right now these bars taking thirty minutes to take effect? anyone have this before?
- Dec 23, 2019·1 reply
Sousa2626do you guys take loraz to help you sleep or herbal stuff someone told me to use magnesium
zinc is pretty good for sleep in my experience
- Dec 23, 2019·1 reply
blackouts are so dangerous imagining doing it public, a complete memory block isn't fun
- Dec 23, 2019·1 reply
does anyone else get a post blackout benzo buzz or isit just me? s*** lasts about an hour after you've woken
- Dec 23, 2019·1 replyDrogon
does anyone else get a post blackout benzo buzz or isit just me? s*** lasts about an hour after you've woken
you mean brain fog?
- Dec 23, 2019·1 replySuperMario
you mean brain fog?
no i feel in a good mood and very enthuastic after i wake up if anything my brain is more active